Sõnale close leiti 19 luuletust
I want my mom
i want my mom,
i am an adult however,
it's the living affect of that war,
that didn't let us be together.
i kept blaming myself,
each time you were cruel,
i always did my very best,
but never enough for you.
'til this day, i still dream
of getting your love,
although i see it is surreal,
and i have to just move on.
'cause that look of yours-
that is so sharp.
never letting people close,
how lonely is your heart?
***
healing forces of the mother divine
i will bow to you gracefully
in this peaceful evening of thougts
that crawl in my head(s)
many visions
many sorrows
different parts, differents faces
all they whisper the same
"stay close,
don't be attached to the drama,
do not drain your energy
that has nothing to offer"
grandparents struggle hard
just to find that
some cherry are not worth for picking
cause its already ripe
all we have
in this midst of universe
are the stars and the moon
who told us many years before
what is on our path
and what isn't
so choose wisely
.....
ONE HAPPY DAY
I have seen the darkness
Very closely -
Blurry eyes, poor vision, empty sight...
I have done a loving act from distance,
Far remotely...
Now the very darkness seems so
Freaking bright...
I want my Baby walking by me
Hand in hand,
Would like to show and teach him ways
The life is beautiful...
And wish one happy day he makes
The safest land',
Still remembering the flight and
Steps on cloudy sand
So colourful<3
/Mari*Uri/
In the nights
in the bottom of all nights
almost without any lights
i can see you but no clear
i definitely like i swear
i like your body outline shades
if i only find that trades
i wish more - i think its tough
i dont feel you close enough
eager voice without the fake
said "cant wait- dont think just take"
then we laid just with no clothes
with no meaning- with no proud
in the middle of next day
we have bearly something say
in the other hand i know
darkness brings us other show
midnight means us simple wishes
simple you and me and flight
just a body heat and kisses
just surrend .....
My dove
I know you´ve had it tough
all the tears you´ve hid inside.
Theres no way you´re getting out of here
It´s dangerous to have been so kind.
You need to feel the wind
brushing on your cheeks.
The very touch of freedom
is the thing anyone should seek.
Fly now, my little dove
courage to live
will come from above.
Fly with your wings,
forget about the land
find a place to stand.
Do not now rest
until we´re far and gone
and all the rest will be
healed by this new dawn.
Never look back
only if you´ve forgiven.
And believe me, that
i, too, hope to make it
to the h .....
Life is a deception with bewitching longing
Life is a deception with bewitching longing
That’s why she’s so strong
What with your rough hand
Fatal writes letters.
I always close my eyes
I say: “Only disturb my heart,
Life is a deception, but sometimes it is
Decorates with joys a lie.
Face the gray sky
Fortune telling on the moon
Calm down mortal and don't demand
The truth that you do not need. "
Good in bird cherry blizzard
To think that this life is a path
Let the easy friends deceive
Let easy friends change.
Let me caress with a gentle word
Let the tongue be sharper than razors, -
I live long read .....
ode to hip hop
I've decided to take destiny into my own hands
You probably can't understand but for me life is bland
And I have this constant hollow feeling
Days are cold, dark and filled with sorrow
Raining clouds from under my ceiling
Dealing with it all would take a person very strong
By the time you hear this I will be gone
Along with my existence will be a way of life for many
I gave some substance, knowledge
And in returned was used to make a petty penny
They've defeated my purpose, deleted my work
Cheated me, seated me underground and wound up bringing me to the surface
They corrupted my .....
I love my kindergarden friend
You know me from kindergarten,
You held me in that garden.
You cared about me each day,
We were together every day.
We played, we laughed together,
we were made for each other.
When I moved out,
You cried out loud.
You cried almost a week,
but sorry, that I was weak.
Then I saw you in a next school,
I fell in love with you,
at volleyball practice.
You noticed, that I have something on you.
Then we talked and we got closer,
every day, we got closer than ever.
I started to trust and tell you everything,
to me, you are my heart, my life.
One day, I hoped to be your wife .....
Go with the flow
Walking around, talking too loud
this shivering sound, the last leaf falls...
Now`s the time, to release the mind
go with the flow, remember ...
To feel the cosy wind, try to find angle, so right
listen those sounds, sometimes so close to ground.
This shivering sound, its so surround
can´t take up, whats up?
-Janek V. 9112015
Please...
Please hug me, like You`ve never hugged anyone before
Please kiss me, like You kissed me months ago
Please look at me, like You`re drowning in my eyes,
Please be close to me, like an Angel on my arm,
Please tell me something, like its the last time We meet.
Just something, I don`t know...
Please just hear me out, like I`m wisest in the world.
Please... just let me be, like we`ve never met each other,
never spoke or laughed together.
Or...
Please hold my hand, cause it makes me warm inside
Please whisper, what You really feel inside
Please make me feel like, one of a kind
The one .....
Don´t say a word
Don't say a word
I've heard all of your stories
don't say a word
let us be
Don't utter a line
before I say good morning
your words are'nt
overwhelming me
Don't try to make me laugh
cause I don't find you witty
oh darling let your body
hold the speech
Just wind your arms around me
caress my hair and shoulders
forget the world and others
I beseech
I switch out my brain
and give myself to senses
I'm asking now if you could do the same
you're voice is such a pain
forgive me my affences
you are the only one to blame
Stop telling jokes
my limit is excee .....
Don't fade away
Don't fade away,
Because I want to go out with you,
And steal your heart,
To feel the beating.
Don't fade away,
Because I want to go out with you,
And hold your hand,
To feel its warmth.
Don't fade away,
Because I want to go out with you,
And make you laugh,
To see its brilliance.
Don't fade away,
Because I want to go out with you,
And hug you a lot,
To keep you close.
Don't fade away,
Because I want to go out with you,
And kiss you a lot,
To feel the taste of your lips.
Don't fade away
Because I want to go out with you,
And to say that I love you,
To fee .....
Our last
My heart beats fast
Here you were at last
One last time
Our final goodbye
I had to make it quick
Even though we've already been through this
My hand warm on the back of your neck
Forehead to Forehead
A share of our breaths
I inched you in closer and closer
Trying to steal one last kiss
You started to pull back your head
"...Please.....Please....."
I begged
You let out a breath
And touched my face
"I still love you"
Were the words i was dying to say
Two kisses
It was done
My whole body was starting to go numb
You kissed my fore .....
Aniversary
The ghosts are out in force tonight
yessir
silent convergence on midnight
yessir
the closes and kirks are empty
the foot of the mile is still
the Holy Rood has taken to ground
wraiths are gathering on the hill
I sat in trembling wonder
took a lashing from the rain
saw strange twinkles shaping symbols
searched for her in fever again
Two bootfulls of mud
a skinfull of water
a head full of fire
and two souls asunder
breathing stalled, I seek one out
among those milling on the crest
who holds me in her gentle thrall
though life has stilled within her .....
A Heart Full Of Little Fluffy Butterflies
I have poison in my veins,
I feel it pumping, I’m not the same.
My heart keeps whispering your name
And you can hear it but you’re oceans away.
How do you read my soul?
I thought it was secret, you know...
As a day into a night you’ve grown
Close to my heart, where wind used to blow.
I’m sorry but your eyes
Look like the starlit skies.
You bring a fire into mine
And my heart is full of little fluffy butterflies.
I smile and I smile
Thinking back to our time.
Your kisses, unable to deny,
Give me my wings to fly.
I’m scared to feel this way,
Not going to lie.
.....
Live up to your dreams
Everyone desires to be popular
and the ones that don’t, lie to themselves.
A human by nature wants to please
whoever is around and does so by all means.
Though once caught up in the belief,
that everything around is cheap,
They close their eyes to their destiny,
for their conscious, it’s too big of a mystery,
and life goes on in a shallow pond,
without ever reaching the open sea or beyond.
The individual identity gets cremated,
and that’s how mainstream is created.
Live up to your dreams, not what they expect,
that’s how you’ll earn your self-respect.
Though remember .....