Sõnale memories leiti 10 luuletust
Aniversary
The ghosts are out in force tonight
yessir
silent convergence on midnight
yessir
the closes and kirks are empty
the foot of the mile is still
the Holy Rood has taken to ground
wraiths are gathering on the hill
I sat in trembling wonder
took a lashing from the rain
saw strange twinkles shaping symbols
searched for her in fever again
Two bootfulls of mud
a skinfull of water
a head full of fire
and two souls asunder
breathing stalled, I seek one out
among those milling on the crest
who holds me in her gentle thrall
though life has stilled within her .....
III - Her
The lingering smell of her.
Ever so present in my memories
Ghosting Its fingers over me.
Leaving behind a want,
a need so desperate – almost dizzying.
Blurred lines of her figure,
casting themselves behind my eyelids.
So real in my mind's eye... yet
nowhere once I open them.
It's like she was never there.
Just the ghost of her left behind.
Now taunting me, driving me crazy.
Playing with my feelings,
tearing open healed wounds – making them bleed all over again
and again
and again.
The raven part 1
While all the world but you is asleep
the silence will be creeping in.
You'll feel the darkness flowing
through some cuts really deep in.
You'll hear the raven's croak
and your heart shakes with hers.
You've let your loneliness soak -
too late for around to turn.
You've poisoned your soul with hate
and trampled your love with fears.
By pain your heart feels raped
the raven will share your tears.
You'll ask for the raven to join
this night's dreadful journey.
For now, with you she cant adjoin
you must learn to own your misery.
The silhouettes of haunting memories
will .....
My dream
What're my biggest dreams..?
My dream is to be with you,
to be by your side,
cuz I love you so much.
I have so many daydreams,
I wish to get married with you,
I wanna live with you,
cuz you mean everything to me.
We have so many good memories,
you are very dear to me,
you have a place in my heart,
you're my heart and soul.
I can't live without you,
I can't be there, where you don't exist.
We make each other feel good and laugh,
we are always there for each other.
We're never alone.
Your perfect for me,
every night I dream your still here.
I wish to see you there.
Louder than anything loud
I wonder, where We belong...
To stars, which are long burnt out...
Or to ground, which waits another round...
Yep, I still wonder, if earth is still round.
I know, after I descend into ground
my mind, will be blown
This moment, I found
Oh no, You can´t be so loud.
So, now I beg, please eject from my mind,
Reject all our memories of that time.
Never return and never ever bring back those silly lies
Leave and promise You´ll never be seen!
-Janek V.
Candy doll or a broken childhood?
Wind played the girl's hair
She was a quiet and small - too delicate to understand
Wind played the girl's fingers
She was a quiet and small - to delicate to understand
Memories, which all fitted box;
Wishes were fulfilled seconds;
Words that are never left without saying;
Holes in the dresses, which were corrected;
It was her nice childhood
The candy thief, which remained unseen;
Drawings, which remained unfinished;
Colors that were left untouched;
It was her nice childhood.
She never played in the sandbox;
She never played volleyball;
She never played a snowball .....
Love's fire
Early love sets a-fire
Beauty and affection is all it desires
Happy songs sing while wedding bells ring
Next thing you know “shush! The baby’s sleeping”
Memories of your life soon spread like wild fire
Causing trouble in the time it acquire
Burning this and burning that, with no actual aspire
Since all your affairs were wrapped in barbwire
But that wasn't enough to hide the lighter of
All the sinful flames that you had inspire
Because Eddie married May but soon admired
The hips that would sway a girl in the church choir
My wounds are deep,
can't get any sleep.
All I do is weep,
all our memories I keep.
Trying to move along,
listening to our song.
Living life wrong,
sadness stretched too long.
Coping with this pain,
nothing to gain.
Crying in the rain,
laying in painful vain.
A never-ending path,
unexpected wrath.
Tears fill the bath,
this is the aftermath.
A big price I paid,
onto the railroad I laid.
I'm a worthless maid,
who needs a ton of aid.
Myself is all I hate,
the hour is once again late.
Death is my certain fate,
but also a freedom gate.
Fucked up, I let myself .....
The Ride
So much love
we use to hold
but he put out the fire
and left me cold.
He took his love
gave it away
when all I wanted
was for him to stay.
I tried to move on
with someone new
what else was I
supposed to do?
He came back
and didn't know
I saw his face
and wished he’d go.
Now my love
is kept a hush
trying to believe
it was just a crush.
And when we meet again
which I’m sure we will
all that was
will be there still.
I’ll let him pass
hold my breath
so he will think
there’s no love left.
But he will know
this is a lie
my feelings .....
Just know that
I know that we are spending our last hours together,
But neither of us do not recognize it
Your touches, they are speechless to me, but I'm drunk of them,
Although I would not want to, I will give up on you.
I know that I can be hidden or too down when I go to the eyes,
However, we both Now we know that we will see again.
All that was and is, after all, at some point disappear,
And my heart beating wildly.
I know that our memories will remain,
Even if all that is currently not want to miss.
Your word says, they make me pretty happy,
But you left unhappy.
Just know that...